mr_morphine @ 2007 - 11-18T17: 05:00
Part 2 is not the news
long after I had received the reply of my ex, I called T. and told him that I will austeigen the band. It just went on so no more. To be honest, I was with the situation in the band for a long time not really happy, but I stayed because I still had the hope that they would do something.
There were basic things that have bothered me to the others I would not have to change. As I have already wrote the first part, I have in the past few months a change through. This included that I had developed musically. I started to hear the music differently, experience them differently, they feel right and I noticed that the rest of the troops could not go along with me. They were still on the same level as some years ago and would not and could not get involved because I felt that I just slowed down. So I have taken the consequences and went away. J. flipped out when he has experienced. It ended in a huge controversy and we would have almost beaten. The moment I realized what I had actually suspected all along: What he really kind of person. For not only musically, and personally I have developed and am no longer the same as 5 years ago. He did not want to admit, for he is still on the same page and it will probably still be in 5 years. At the time, then I thought it was still great to drink every night, taking drugs, going to parties, other reason to chat etc.. And now that those times are over for me, so he did not come clear. J. may be an intelligent and sensitive human being with good people skills and a keen intellect, which no one pretending to something so easily. He can see through people very well and assess situations well and quickly, but his character is corrupt through and through. He is basically still a toddler with huge ego problems, internally totally restless and unstable. timid by nature, it occurs as a go-getter and gives every impression as one, which one is better from the road. He is very engaging, always seeks to be number one, always in focus and control everything and everyone. Earlier, he was off with the wrong people who took advantage of him in rows, and he noticed it mostly when it was too late. Then he parted from them, but not without having previously beaten again with them, or at least offended. I've never experienced that he wanted to divorce someone for good. In most cases, have their Friends and suspected him unceremoniously left to simply never reported to him. Among all his friends he had until now, almost no one was there where he had had no quarrel. To his leave but that exploiting any of his friends, on the contrary: He is always there for his friends when they need it, but in friendship, he sees something like a following, which he is the leader. As long as his friends act and behave this way, as he wants and not develop it own ego, he accepts them as his friends. But if someone starts and developed his own opinion, then he tried to fight him and subdue him. And if he does not succeed, there it friction constantly full to these friends pissed and go back on him. How many I have already come and go and see him ... I was the one who has endured the longest time with him. Nearly 10 years we were friends.
Him I cry at least according to no tears, because I think I'm going to start now that I'm rid of him, finally, to flourish. He stopped me more than he has done much to me. Too bad that I have not detected much earlier. Who knows where I would be today. But
better now than later. I recently had
a meeting with T., the bassist of my ex-band. I'm with him a few things need to be clarified. With J. I would not have done, because that would be likely to escalate in 2 minutes.
It was about our web site and domain name, whom I now write about. Then it went about whether they can play the songs I've written ... I have of course denied, because I do not think J. sings a single note of my songs! T. I'm sorry, because he is innocent in the matter purely drawn with. With him I never had a problem, he was always very correct to me. He is a wonderful person, how she meets these days rarely and we have decided that we always wanted to write again here and there.
When we said our goodbyes and I gave him the keys of the rehearsal room, handed over, we had tears in his eyes. 6 years we were like brothers, always together on the road, have all shared. Now we have torn apart such circumstances.
Life is not fair to me .... in any case has nothing more here. I will look for me soon new people with whom I can make music together. And if I should not be found, I will move on. I keep open the option to go abroad.
I only live once and life can be over any time.
It's a race against time, from which you do not know when it expires. As a waiting room for death. You never know when one is called.
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