mr_morphine @ 2007-08-18T15:52:00 Joa, that's all well with my vacation. As of Monday I have to work again. As it stands, I will put in some mobile nursing service. I'm curious. I've done something like this a few times and it was always very pleasant, as because I have my own area in which I no sparks between them.
anyway I function best when I can work alone. So wait.
Otherwise it was a very great week. Last week I was in Kiel for a few "friends" (I knew previously from the internet). It was a great evening, although much too short.
Well, the day after I was adopted and then rode the train to Lübeck. From there I took a taxi to Travemünde. Was more expensive than the train, but I had the runs before (Frankfurt / Main-Kiel and Kiel-Lübeck) so fed up with the regional railways, and was so at the end of my patience that I'm worth the money was. Once there we took the ferry over to Trelleborg, Sweden.
The trip itself was quite funny, I've celebrated here with a couple of Swedes who have shared with me their beer and cigarettes.
However, what concerns the states on the ferry ... my face ... I never go more with such a ferry!
said, the ride itself was very pleasant, but one was at all long nose any restrictions. Moreover, the prices for food on board so horrendously expensive that one immediately passed the appetite. In the evening it was only until 22:30
food, which of course is not chosen very happy if you go on board first at 22:00. On
tomorrow then, just before we arrived, I went down and wanted to have breakfast. When I entered the room, a lady was revamped in the most expensive suit at the door and asked me "Do you eat breakfast?"
yes
"costs 10 €"
"Please?" I still did not order. "
"This is a flat rate"
"Well I say it once was lumped: NO" and went back. They've probably complete the shot. With the money I buy here in the cheapest bakery in Frankfurt 50 rolls!
Well, I then waited for the ferry port and then I gagangen directly aboard. What surprised me was that I was not the one - yet the exit was controlled by anyone or stopped. I could immigrate illegally to smuggle kilos of drugs or weapons ... no one would have stopped me!
in Sweden I had a super time. I was with my cousin in Malmö, have met a few people about him, which I will continue to keep contact. And if it is possible for me again, I will repeat that in any case, that's for sure!
I play with the idea, quite likely to emigrate there. Keeps me here, at least nothing more.
The trip back to "good old Germany" was all we went not great. The trip from Malmo to London I was just Cost 1000 crowns (just over 100 €)
The seats on the bus were more uncomfortable, the air conditioning could not turn off, so I had to wear thick, so I do not get cold.
learned Then I ever so know a lady who were riding with me on the bus. She was from Hamburg and also happened to be a nurse (man, what a coincidence
) came
When I told her that I am also from the industry, we have a little talk. She said that she also would like to emigrate to Sweden and there would have already looked for jobs. She was there for a whole 3 months and there has been an internship at the University Hospital in Stockholm. Then she wrote me a few addresses and made another list of what I would have to consider everything. I was very nice of her, I would probably not bother me ^ ^ made
Then they began to talk out of school, etc. I'm talking about private things, however, generally not very much and certainly not about the work, because I've to do every day, so I went more in the role of the listener. She started and chatted about drug abuse (of Luminal to morphine was all there), about their mental health problems that they had well and I wondered for a moment, if I somehow magically dressed such people. When she told me then her "souvenir" showed that they were from Sweden had brought with him (a whole tupperware box full of marijuana), I could not help laughing ...
Everything went then the whole journey to Hamburg. We talked about this and that and it seemed to be fine that I was not much talking. Once there, she said goodbye to me, give me your email addy and offered me to visit them every time in HH ... The city seems to me not letting go
But I was glad when it soon went. When I joined the bus, I saw her still behind as she walked away and a handful of people were expected, they received with joy. All of a sudden I Fiehl into a deep melancholy mood. The whole area reminded me even more because of my Ex, die sich vor mehr als 3 Monaten von mir verabschiedete. Und ich wusste, dass, wenn ich in F ankomme, niemand da sein würde, der auf mich wartet. All diese Gedanken im Verein mit meiner in letzter Zeit ohnehin schon angeschlagenen Psyche bewirkten, dass mir plötzlich die Tränen runterliefen. Ich zog mir schnell meine Sonnenbrille auf und senkte meinen Kopf nach unten, weil ich nicht wollte, dass das irgendjemand mitkriegt.
Zum Glück hatte ich auf meinem Handy ein paar MP3-Dateien drauf, so dass ich mich mit Musik ein wenig ablenken konnte. Ausserdem beruhigte mich der Gedanke, dass es anderen vielleicht ähnlich geht wie mir.
Irgendwann verfiehl ich in eine Apathie und schaffte es doch noch, einzuschlafen. Nun sitze I am back here and think about this and that.
Paradoxically, such a person can feel so lonely that has someone with him constantly. But these people are not like me, they communicate with me on a level with which I can not do anything.
so complicated, so needlessly complicated. Language is ever in my eyes just to sober exchange of information necessary, not more. This
autism is both a blessing and a curse at the same time. Recently, I get less and less to deal with loneliness, but I do not want to stun again with drugs. But I've learned to love my senses too much to numb that I once again as durable wants.
what I must do to get this damned lonely in the handle. I know there are also those out there like me who make it to the same reasons not to make contact with others. Perhaps it is
be indulged me soon again, to enjoy the togetherness that I had the honor to meet shortly. Irgendwan ... I live for these moments ...
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