mr_morphine @ 2007-08-03T16:50:00
I do not know anymore. For days I just vegetate in front of me and I see nothing in a sense. All the plans that I had once made me, all the goals I had set times and any ideas how my life should look like at some point have been in recent weeks / months due to external influences more and more destroyed, until finally no more of them remained. What is left behind, is an inner emptiness and the realization that my life leads nowhere at the moment. to my old friends I have hardly any contact and meet new people with me is anything but simple. Something I was never very good.
Yesterday was another one of those utterly pointless evenings.
I was with J, an old friend, whom I know from times when I was in F-Rödelheim dwelt. A nice guy, if somewhat quixotic. But on the other hand, I am in some ways too.'ll See you maybe once a year, since we both have our long developed in different directions. But I come here before so damn lonely that I just take every opportunity to be among people. We were together yesterday given the edge because he got the idea to carry with me to a party to F-Westend. I said to have mixed feelings, was probably also because a "yes" to bring light into this state on the lips as a "No".
stiff as boards dragged we look to the next S-Bahn station and squeeze us in an almost completed railway. How can I hate something ...
Well, the rest I wrap myself in silence times.
I am seriously myself away from it all here. That means, among other things, leave the area on here forever and start anew elsewhere. Slowly I will be here all too much, neither are the people well for me, nor I have the feeling that it move forward even one meter in my life.
I'm going to look out the number from my cousin in Sweden and ask him if he has time to the days that I can come to him. If it because I like it, I will stay there. But that remains to be seen.
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