mr_morphine @ 2007-10-17T00: 25:00
I think I can breathe for now. The night sweats comes with the safety of opioids. I have noticed the fact that the symptoms disappeared when I stopped taking the things. I'm glad drum, because I had been really worried me.
Yesterday I sent my ex the cellar key, which I had from it. In the envelope I've enclosed a little note with a few words to them. On the day I wanted to make sure, today I turn doubt whether this was a good idea Sun
I've discovered by chance on a single page and am stumbled her profile. As was seen, that it is in a new relationship ... with a WOMAN! I must say that surprised me a little, but it has previously stressed repeatedly that it is 100% heterosexual and a relationship with a woman absolutely can not imagine. Added to this was that she used to respond to other women flirt very negative. I am always amazed at how blatant people can change very quickly. Although I have written that they no longer interests me, but that was a lie ... I have to admit that I secretly still stuck in it but if I ever had the slightest hope that one day the two of us again pair be, then this hope has by now vanished into thin air.
Is this a result of the trauma that she has benefited from our relationship? Or should I worry about because they might become a lesbian because of me? Who knows ... If I'm honest, I think she is a woman also be better. She is so sensitive and vulnerable, so that a woman simply does a better job.
Nevertheless, I condemn it not so, because I have nothing against homosexuals. I wrote her that I wish her all the best with her new partner and that I am crazy for her as she could give her life meaning again. I told her that I would report me again with her and I really wanted to leave it at that. They asked me because - as she said - still loves me and it would kill them if we would consider further contact. But now that she has a new relationship, the feelings for me might not be available. That's why I have written to her again. I would of course look great if they would respond and we again had little contact with each other, but to be honest I'm not as big hopes. What the hell ... life goes on ...
I'll have the daily phone calls with my company and ask if I can freely take the month of December. Theoretically should be possible, because I've got enough overtime, except for the 8 days of leave, I still have. A little free time I would do quite well, at least I've been working for weeks almost continuously. I have rediscovered a love of music and play again lately very much guitar. Early next year I will, if all goes well, go with my guys into the studio and record a new demo CD. On the resonances I am now looking forward, as the songs sound much better than our old one.
Something's happening in my life ... luckily:) I'm slowly
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